I'm conflicted. I was raised to believe in God and thought I did all of my life until recently. Now I'm having doubts. There's so much that doesnt' make any sense, but I have made such a public show of my belief. I'm afraid that I'll look like a hypocrite, liar, fool, etc. to my family and friends, even those who read my blog. So I go on pretending all the while that I'm in deep, deep doubt.
What should I do? What can I do? How can I tell if my doubts are real or simply some form of self-checking mechanism or something? If I admit I don't believe, there's no going back, but if I ignore what I feel I slip into a deeper depression about it all.
Any ideas, help, support will be appreciated.
Thanks,
Jim